A Savage World Indeed.

I am so ashamed of myself. Lately I have been posting about how "I" am so thrilled with "You Tube" and how "I" am so happy to finally have a high speed connection, Or Bitching about "My" AOL program messing with "My" computer.

I was reading my friends blog this morning and compared to what he is going through I am living the life of Riley. I mean this is a guy whom with all his own financial woes and other problems offered to send me money when my son and wife were in the hospital a while back. I could not believe that some one that I only knew from correspondents on the web was willing to reach out and help in such a way.

Today he spoke of feelings of worthlessness and failure at being a good human being. About hating his life and envy of those who have passed on. From what I can see this is a guy who goes to work every day, does the best he can to provide for his family and pets(He's a cat lover) has care and concern for his friends,and from what I can tell he has a lot of friends that care for him. Now if you ask me these are all indications that he is not only not a failure and not worthless but is a huge success in every way that really matters.

He also wrote that he feels he is not very smart or wise. I read this guys blog just about every day and i can tell you he is very smart, very articulate and one hell of a good writer. I have told him in the past that I think the answer to his financial problems lies in his writing. I truly think he could turn out a successful screenplay. Give his blog a read and see if you don't agree. It is linked here.
God bless you guy, Keep hangin in there. To Quote one of my favorite Lyricists ,
"Gettin Right To The Heart Of Matters, It's The Heart That Matters More"
(From "Omaha" By Adam Duritz)

I'm Soooo Confused.

In the immortal words of Vinny Barbarino from "Welcome Back kotter"
"I'm Sooooo confused" As many (If any) who read my blog know, I am fairly new to computers, so it only follows that when my AOL program started screwing up my computer that I would totally freak out. Over the past few days I have lost and regained my address books, Favorite places, not to mention all of the mail that I had saved to my PCs filing cabinet(have not gotten the saved mail back).To make matters worse I discovered this morning that some how a second account had been created for which I was going to be charged. So I had to spend an enormous amount of time on hold with their billing dept to get this mistake cleared up. I think I am just about ready to scrap AOL entirely and just go with Comcast for my connection and use Firefox for my Browser. In short, for all the extra bells and whistles that AOL has they still SUCK!!!!

Tickled Pink

I am just thrilled to have discovered "YOU TUBE". I am amazed at the never ending supply of entertainment available there. I have been typing in some of the most obscure names in the video search window and I have been treated to a veritable treasure trove of musical nostalgia. I have seen clips of bands from the sixties that I didn't know existed any more like The Jefferson Airplane on the old Smothers Brothers variety show, The Trogs, the Cowsills, Jimi Hendrix and many more. I could spend all day just thinking of bands from my youth and watching and listening to Great old music. Now I am in a quandary as to how I am going to be able to afford to keep my high speed connection when the six month discount period is up. I will have to find a way because I am now Hooked.

New Addiction

Well lets see, I spent years addicted to alcohol and gave it up for pot. Then I spent years addicted to pot and then added meth to the menu. Now that I have rid myself of those addictions I find my self in the grips of a new and far more addictive habit, Thats right, YOU TUBE!!!!! OMFG I just can't get enough. I started using about 5 days ago and have found my self at the screen watching videos and reading and replying to comments at least 5 hours a day or so. I need help(LOL). This is all because of comcast and their insidious discount offer on high speed internet which I believe is designed to snare people like me with addictive personalities and trap them forever in their fiber optic web. I don't think I will be able to escape when the six months is up and the price for the connection doubles. I'm Doomed.

"UNLESS"

I came across this video on you tube and right away I was impressed. It not only addresses what we are doing to our planet, But it does it using Dr. Seuss an Cat Stevens. What more could you ask for?

107 Flips on Top Spin

This is one awsome video. I am using it as a trial. This is my first attempt at poting a video

Back home again

Well my son Danny is home from his second stint in the hospital. This time he was there for a week, last time it was a month. during all this he has lost about 18 pounds because of being on a liquid diet and the fact that with all his colon problems he has not felt like eating hardly at all. One day last week I was at his room and had given him a carnation instant breakfast sweet berry flavor drink which is one of the few things he would drink. I left the room for a few minutes and when I returned I found that he had spilled it, He was crying and covering his face and head as if he thought that he was going to be punished for it. This has me really bothered because he lives in an intermediate care home for people with developmental disabilities and other conditions such as Cerebral Palsy and now I wonder what may be going on there. Saturday night I received a phone call from the discharge manager at the hospital, She told me that they may be sending him home on Sunday so I called the care home's owner and gave her the heads up.The next day I got another call from the hospital. This time it was to inform me that they had discharged him but that the owner of the care home said that there was no one available to pick him up or to care for him at the house till the next day.

These people are being paid well to care for him and where given 24 hours notice that he was coming home yet they were still unable to do their job. They reluctantly agreed to find some one to pick him up but after I had told the case manager at the hospital the story about spilling the drink she became concerned enough to keep him one more day at the hospital till I could talk with Danny's social worker to make sure that there is no abuse going on at the home.

These homes have a large turn over in employees because of the nature of the work. I know this first hand because I worked as an orderly at a nursing facility.
The home that Danny lives in is also home to three or for other clients that have Cerebral Palsy and are completely non ambulatory. In the five years that he has lived there the staff has changed completely two or three times, Just when you get to know the people caring for your loved ones they leave and a whole new bunch of strangers take over and it takes a while to get to know them and build trust. This problem is compounded by a language barrier because all the staff that the owner hires are usually Filipino and most of them have such thick accents that they are really hard to understand. I really hate to think that something maybe wrong at the home because he has made such great leaps forward in his development since he has been there, But like I said, with change of staff comes different people with different personalities. People like my son depend quite a lot on routine to function in their daily lives and when some one who cares for them has a different way of doing things than the last person it can frustrate and confuse them. So I have called his social worker and asked her to quietly look into things at the home, I really don't want to rock the boat unless there is a real reason to do so. There are very few facilities of this kind in the area and he has done really well there for so long and it is his home.