Today is the day of my Wife's funeral/Memorial Service. It will probably without a doubt be the most difficult day of my entire life. Nothing else I can think of even comes close to having to say goodbye to my Debbie. Last night My sister came by and I gave her the best of Debbie's porcelain Doll collection to distribute among the nieces. I know that Debbie would have wanted that. She was so proud to be an Aunt. In doing so I came across the last Doll that she bought. It was never opened because I told her that there was no space for it yet. I had planned on buying her a display cabinet for the. It just breaks my heart that she never got a chance to see it displayed. It was her favorite kind, an Indian all dressed in leather with the colorful beads and feathers and such. I sure hope that I hold up ok at the service.

Only out of frustration.

I want to point out that any negative things that I may have ever posted on this Blog about My Beautiful wife Debbie were strictly out of frustration from dealing with her disease. I didn't mean any of it. I realize to late it seems just how much I Loved her and how she Loved me. A phrase from the song "Big Tellow taxi" comes to mind.

" Don't it always seem to go
That you don't what you've got Till it's Gone"

I Love you Debbie and I miss you oh so Very Much.

A rose is gonna fall
An Angels gonna call on you
To Help you on your way
Time spent toether
Like now is forever
Don't ever Let this Love slip away

Dave Mason - Every Woman

When Debbie and I were first married I had to leave after 6 months to serve an 8 Month jail sentence.(That's right I was a Bad Boy) Anyway I played this song for her on my Guitar and bought the album. I told her that when she got lonely for me to just listen to this song and she would know how musch I loved her. It worked, we were married 29 years. Debbie I still Love You With all My Heart

For Debbie With Love.

The tears I Cry I Cry for Me
For I know that your with Jesus
And I realize his plans for us
May not always Please Us
But I know some day I'll be with you
Tho' it may not be tommorow
Because the time we Live our lives on Earth
Is time thats only Borrowed.